Crazy Britain:They’re All Raising Me

"Don't understand love? You say I don't understand love?"

Upon hearing Morgan's words, Meiliuqina, the Fairy Lancelot, immediately jumped up, defiant:

"I do understand! My heart is filled with love for Yuse— I dare say, no one in this world loves Yuse more than I do!"

In response to her defense, Morgan merely glanced at her before sneering:

"Hah, stop humiliating yourself... Is that what you call love? That's not love."

At her words, Meiliuqina was about to argue back, but as Morgan continued speaking, her expression suddenly froze.

"Back then, anyone who pulled you out of the mud at the dragon's bones, no matter who it was, you would blindly fall in love with them. In other words, it's like the imprinting effect in birds; you immediately decided the first person you saw after being born was your 'love.'"

"If someone like Aurora had picked you up back then, you'd have fallen in love with her too, and you'd have done whatever she asked, even if she told you to kill Yuse, you would have done it without hesitation. Am I right?"

"I..." Meiliuqina took a step back, murmuring instinctively, "No, I wouldn't..."

"Don't you think it's laughable to say such self-deceiving things now?"

Looking at Meiliuqina's hesitant face, Morgan shook her head and sighed tiredly:

"That's the kind of person you are. You just don't want to admit how fragile your love for Yuse really is."

"I..."

Meiliuqina wanted to say something more, but Morgan abruptly interrupted:

"You think you can only be called a machine in Albion form? No, you are a machine now as well. To describe you with knowledge from general human history, you are like a pre-programmed machine. Everything you do exists solely for the purpose of loving someone, and all your actions are based on that."

"You are like a machine whose only thought is to act for the one you love... As for who you love? Just fill in any name. The first person who pulled you out of the swamp, the first person you saw when you were born—that's who you love. Tell me, when you search your heart, is that not the truth?"

"I..."

After this interrogation, Meiliuqina's face grew pale. She had never considered these things before.

"I... But..."

She took a few steps back, her mind overwhelmed by Morgan's words. But just then, it seemed like she had grasped a lifeline and stubbornly questioned Morgan:

"But what about you? Aren't you the same? Didn't you fall in love with Yuse because he accompanied you through so much, supported you through the pilgrimage? If someone else had accompanied you, wouldn't you have fallen in love with them too? You didn't fall in love with him because of those experiences?"

It seemed as if she was trying to reclaim her sense of self, defending herself urgently.

However, Morgan merely sneered dismissively.

"...Hah, so this is how you think? You really are a fish, Meiliuqina."

"Need I remind you? During my pilgrimage, it wasn't just Yuse who accompanied me—there was Tetralt, Ector, Grim, Rainek, and even you were one of the people who accompanied me on that journey... But when it comes to friendship and love, I always distinguish them clearly, Meiliuqina."

"I'm not like you."

At this moment, Morgan straightened up in her throne, her expression behind the veil becoming more serious:

"Yuse indeed accompanied me through much. We have shared both hardships and joys. I admit, I fell in love with him in part because of these experiences. But the reason I love him is that throughout this journey, I discovered countless qualities in him that I couldn't help but admire."

As she spoke the name, the usually cold Queen of Winter's expression softened, her eyes gentle as she looked past Meiliuqina, as though lost in a distant past:

"I love his unique pursuits. Wealth, status, power, strength... the things that worldly people seek, he is interested in them too, and he will try to pursue them. But he only does so out of interest, never blindly. He would never abandon his principles for those things. Instead, he values friendship, family, and love more... He always focuses on these."

"I love his unyielding stubbornness. Even though he often seems to not care about anything, even though he frequently says he wants to give up or throw in the towel, once he sets his mind to something, he will pursue it with all his will, no matter how difficult or challenging it may be. Even if he had to do it a thousand or ten thousand times, he would never give up."

"I love his unwavering devotion to his companions. Even though he is a person who doesn't like trouble, when his companions make mistakes or get into trouble, he always gives them a scolding, but silently helps them through it. He would never betray his comrades, nor would he abandon them for any reason, no matter their flaws, be it physical or personality. As long as they are good at heart, he accepts them. And when a companion is in danger, no matter how dangerous the situation, even if he knows the risk is high, he will not hesitate to rescue them."

"I love his clarity of purpose, his goodness, and sense of justice. He always believes in what is right, always has warmth in his heart, and always feels sympathy for the weak and helpless. He never tolerates ugliness, but he remains clear-headed, never blinded by anger. He always extends a helping hand to those in need, fighting against all that is ugly and unjust—just like he always says: 'When poor, stay true to yourself; when prosperous, help the world.'"

"I love his open-minded attitude. When he recognizes someone as a companion, he is willing to help them without hesitation, even if he knows they are using him. He doesn't regret it or feel betrayed. What he seeks is only that the other person reciprocates his feelings, sees him as a companion or lover. Even though he knows not everyone values relationships as he does, if someone betrays him first, he will cut his ties without hesitation. He values feelings, but he stays clear-headed. He sees money and power as far less important than his companions, but that doesn't mean he will sell himself short."

"He sometimes gets smug over small achievements, and he may get carried away, but he never becomes arrogant. He keeps a humble heart, always willing to learn from others and listen attentively, even to the fanciful thoughts of a child. He respects every life with intelligence, regardless of age, appearance, or condition."

"Of course, he's not perfect. He makes mistakes, and occasionally, when he's emotional, he's stubborn and refuses to admit it. But when the situation calls for him to apologize, he will immediately set aside his pride and offer a sincere apology."

"His relationships with others are never based on material exchanges. He doesn't need constant maintenance. Once you've been his friend, his companion, he will never forget you. Even if a long time has passed, his feelings for you will never fade. He won't disturb you unless you need him, but when you are truly in trouble, he will show up and offer his help, always considering your dignity, finding a way to let you accept his help without feeling burdened."

"Of course, he has his flaws. He's afraid of trouble, overly fond of battle, lazy when there's nothing urgent, easily distracted, overly self-critical, and has strange habits. He's also self-conscious about his love for sweets and can't handle spicy food. But even with these flaws, I love him all the more. They make him more adorable, more real, just like I love his strengths."

Once Morgan started talking about him, it seemed like she couldn't stop. Her words flowed endlessly, and Meiliuqina could no longer see her expression behind the veil, but just hearing Morgan speak with such gentleness brought memories from two thousand years ago.

"I still love him... No, I'll stop here for now."

After listing so many of Yuse's qualities, Morgan suddenly realized she had said too much. She cleared her throat and stopped, then said:

"Though I could continue for a long time... just these words are enough to show how different I am from you, Meiliuqina."

"Although his extraordinary talents are impressive, it's not these talents that make me love him. What I love is his precious character. Even if he didn't have those special talents, even if he were an average person with no standout qualities, I would still love him just as much."

"I love him because of who he is, not for any other reason."

"Even in a peaceful time, even if we were ordinary people without magic, if I saw Yuse again, I would still love him—no, I should call him Guinevere, since Yuse was the name I gave him. I wanted him to have a name that he had never had in the general human history, to show that he doesn't belong to that version of Morgan, but to the one here, to the Morgan of the Fairy of Paradise."

"Wait, the Morgan from general human history?" Meiliuqina suddenly realized something, "You also have memories of that version of you... And you knew Yuse... No, you knew Guinevere?"

"....I think I've said too much," Morgan suddenly realized, shaking her head lightly, "That part of the memory is something I haven't shared with you yet."

But because Meiliuqina interrupted her, Morgan had to pull her gaze away from the past and turn the topic back to Meiliuqina.

When she looked at Meiliuqina again, Morgan's voice had become colder, her expression darker:

"In short, the fact that you think you love Yuse as much as I do disgusts me... Meiliuqina, your love has never been thought through, it can't withstand any test. The purity of your love is just too low..."

At the end of her words, Morgan suddenly questioned:

"—How dare you think you have the right to love the same person as I do?"