one shots book

Kiyotaka's P.O.V

Kiyotaka finished his classes and went to ryuuen's room to spend time there, there was no plans to meet today but he wanted to spend time with his boyfriend, specially since there is something he is conflicted about.

I took out the spare key I have and used it to enter the room.

As expected, no one was inside. Ryuuen's personality is actually really active and he loves going out so it wasn't a surprise.

I take off my cloths then went under covers to take a nap comfortably.

I kept staring at the ceiling while thinking about what concerned me these days.

After me and ryuuen did intimate things together, I have been avoiding repeating what happened.

It's not I disliked it, I liked it…..A bit too much I almost lost control. But at the same time, I was really uncomfortable with the loss of control and I still am.

Being this vulnerable with someone like that was a first to me, I don't know if I trust ryuuen that much, I don't even understand what I feel towards him.

It's just very comfortable and interesting, however I don't know if I want to allow it to be deeper.

I have thoroughly searched about sexual intercourse between men during these period of time. From books to internet.

Ryuuen forget when he told me about porn that even if I can't access things here, I can still search in other links and sites using different languages.

Naturally I'm no longer naïve about these things, so now I know what we did was the most superficial thing and if we stayed in this relationship, we will have to do more things that I don't know if I want to do.

Ryuuen is very patient with me but will he continue being that patient if he knows I'm thinking of not doing anything sexual with him anymore.

According to research,Any sort of relationship has to have some intimacy. Specially at our age where hormones are raging, if I kept holding him back there is a small chance he will look elsewhere to get what he wants or like what I read about, request our relationship to be open which I absolutely refuse, I don't want him to be like that with anyone else.

I thought back to the sensations I felt that night, I shivered remembering how overwhelmed I was. It was too much, I was feeling too much at once.

It was a surprise to find that my body was that sensitive, no one ever touched me that way so I never knew.

I couldn't gather any strength anywhere in my body and my brain was empty, it felt like I was floating. It was the first time in my life that my brain stopped thinking almost completely.

'it was dangerous, I was vulnerable'

I buried my head in the pillows more trying to stop thinking about those sensation so I don't get aroused.

Before I know it, I fall asleep

#after several hours#

I feel someone entering the room so I open my eyes.

''ryu…''

I call out in a sleepy voice, I raise my upper half off the bed and start rubbing my eyes while watching ryuuen come closer to give me a kiss on the forehead which is followed by a flick.

''you didn't eat anything right?''

I groan and lay back on bed wanting to escape the scolding which continued while he was changing to comfy cloths and going to the kitchen to cook for us.

After he entered the kitchen, I got up and reached for some shorts and a t-shirt of his to wear since I only slept in briefs and then I went to wash my face and hands to go help in the kitchen.

''is there anything I can help with?''

''cut the onions into rings''

I start working helping him in small things so he can finish faster. I wasn't really hungry but I wanted to finish eating so we can have a talk and make things clear so I don't have to bother to think about this topic again.

We ate while chatting about our day then washed the dishes and went to lay on the bed together.

"Ryu"

Ryuuen looked at me raising one eyebrow then put his phone away and turned to his side so we can speak face to face.

"What is it?"

"I wanted to talk about our relationship"

"what about it ?" ryuuen asked looking confused.

"Are you dissatisfied with anything in our relationship?" I asked him directly since I didn't want to beat around the bush.

"No, I'm satisfied I think for now. Why?"

I caught the important words 'for now'.

"I see, I'm uncomfortable with the sexual part of our relationship and I don't know if I will ever want to explore it". I decided to be as direct as possible .

"Is that all?"

"I believe so"

"Okay" then he reached for his phone.

I blinked 3 times then reached for his phone, closed and put it out of his reach.

"Oi!"

"why aren't you saying anything?"

"what am I supposed to say in this case? Also I'm not an idiot, I already figured out that you were uncomfortable and was ready for you to say that."

"Then are you okay with our relationship not being intimate? At this point what will differentiate our relationship and a normal friendship?" I ask completely confused with what will our relationship be.

'it feels unpleasant'

Ryuuen sighs then pats my head " how can our relationship not be intimate, being intimate is not all about sexual acts only but also cuddling, cooking together, laying down together,...etc. as long as you are with a lover, anything you do together is going to feel intimate. Also where do you see two friends kissing on the mouth as greeting? Or could it be you want to also stop kissing?"

"NO" I reply in a voice higher than my talking voice.

"I don't want us to stop kissing" I repeat again.

I close my eyes for a couple of seconds then look at him in the eye.

"Can I trust you?"

Ryuuen seems completely shocked at my question but replied instantly.

"of course"

I nod then ask another question.

"if I told you to stop, will you stop immediately?"

Ryuuen answered immediately "of course, little fool."

"Then maybe we can try more until I come to a decision"

I stayed silent for a while but I heard him ask a question.

"Do you want to set up a password? Like a word if we say the other has to stop immediately?"

I blink then nod . "that's a good idea. What should the password be ?"

" something that will completely turn you off once you hear it I guess"

" then mine is white room"

Ryuuen raised an eyebrow looking all confused then simply nodded " I guess I will be turned off if I heard that, mine is muscle bunny"

I look at him, open my mouth then close it, thinking both our names are a joke.

But I note and memorize the password in my mind.

"what now?"

" we take a nap"

"I just wake up from a nape"

"Well, I didn't" after saying that, he turned to the other side and pulled the covers over his head.

''isn't it rude to sleep and leave me alone''

"it's okay, you are old enough to find something to entertain yourself alone."

After that came a dramatic high snore.

I sighed and layed on my back with my arm over my eyes, I started thinking about our relationship and if my decision is something I will regret, but completely threw that idea out since the chances are too low.

It's going to be me completely stepping out of my comfort zone and leaving myself vulnerable in every sense of the word to someone else.

Not exactly a stranger, it's my lover.

While thinking about random things I fall asleep again.

I wake up to Ryu playing with my hair, I push his hand away while speaking "stop it, it's making me want to go back to sleep"

After a couple of seconds, my brain started functioning again so I asked him what is the time.

Ryu looked up from his phone saying "10:00pm".

It seems he has been awake for a while, scrolling through social media with one hand and playing with my hair with the other.

Its moments like this that I always think Ryu likes touching me in any way.

"What are you thinking about?"

I look at Ryu who still had his eyes on his phone and answered

"That you like touching me".

Ryu asks me this question a lot and I answer him truthfully most of the time.

I watched as he froze before smirking and putting the phone away and turning to hug me.

"I do"

I was hugged with a hand over my stomach since I was sleeping on my back, the hand started massaging my abdomen in circular motion.

Ryu was watching my reaction closely then asked "how does it feel?"

"Like it will be helpful if someone has constipation"

I tried to annoy him which was a success if you count his disgusted face but it was a failure if you count the yelp that escaped me after he roughly pinched my right nipple.

Honestly I don't understand his weird fixation on my nipples Or chest. My pectoralis major muscle are decently developed but not large,they are not the same as before I enrolled to school since I stopped exercising, they are smaller now I guess.

Maybe I should start working out from tomorrow.

Since he likes my chest this much I don't mind putting some effort for him.

But I almost threw out this idea after he pinched me again.

It's painful.too rough. And the friction when I wore cloths was too irritating.

"were you lacking in breastmilk growing up?!" I couldn't help it anymore and scolded him.

"Oh yeah, if you have, give me some" ryuuen smirked while replying immediately.

"Can you leave them alone today? We have school tomorrow and I have swimming class. I don't want everyone to know, though I doubt anyone will look"

Ryuuen groaned while throwing a childish tantrum "do you have to attend that shitty class? I don't want anyone to see you half naked and also all the boys will see you naked"

Before I could even reply to his nonsense, he suddenly get pissed off "Dammit, even I only saw you naked recently and WE ARE LOVERS...dammit"

"I don't think the boys in my class care about seeing me naked"

"Ohhh this shits do, you just are an oblivious idiot"

I was scolded when I did nothing wrong. I argued back "my classmates are known through the whole grade for being mostly perverts who will do anything to breath the same air as a girl. Why would they care about seeing me naked, I have what they have too."

Ryuuen sighed then started patting my head ,talking in a way like when you try to explain something to an ignorant child "it's not about being boy or girl. When there is an attractive person, people enjoy watching them, it may have nothing sexual to it. It's simply for visual and mind pleasure, that's why a lot of people call an attractive person (eye candy) and you my dear are a very attractive person to the point a lot of senpais said they could get it up for you if you just smiled at them."

I was silent and trying to digest what he said but he had to ruffle my hair and whisper "little fool".

I wanted to argue back that I'm actually very smart and that he never beat me in anything but I stayed silent to avoid having to fight this late at night.

Definitely not because I don't want him to pinch my nipples again.

It took almost 5 days for my nipples to return to normal after he ravaged them and school was very irritating those days.

While I was lost in thought , I was suddenly kissed on the lips 2 times very fast.

"Don't let your defense down if you don't want to be kissed"

Ryuuen cheekily teased me.

"But I do want kisses" I replied brazenly without embarrassment.

Ryuuen rolled his eyes at me but scooted closer and started kissing more deeply.

It wasn't long before it turned into a make out session with his tongue licking the roof of my mouth several times and and grabbing my tongue to suck on it's tip.

Fortunately, I learned to breath through my nose at this times because I don't think I have the ability to hold my breath for 30 minutes yet.

Finally we both pulled away and were panting with a thread between us that was cut fast.

I wiped my mouth while closing my eyes and regulating my breath but gasped when suddenly I was grabbed down there.

I opened my eyes and looked at the owner of the offending hand.

" congratulations, you are a healthy boy"

I want to smack him.

Holding back my desire, I settled for rolling my eyes and took a jab at his pride " thanks, I have always been big and healthy. Have you?".

Although ryuuen isn't small by any means. compared to me, the size difference was apparent.

I expected him to be annoyed but instead he smirked and said nothing.

He is not insecure.

I tested him briefly to make sure he wasn't insecure since I learned a lot of men get insecure about their size especially if their partner was well endowed.

Well, ryuuen is very confident so I expected this result.

"Size isn't the only thing important. Techniques, control,....and other things are also important" ryuuen talked too confidently for someone who said he hadn't had sex with anyone before.

" aren't you a virgin? Also do you believe I will be lacking in any of this things you said?"

"I'm a virgin but I have experience"

I raised my eyebrows "oh."

"Do you want to have a try?"

I blinked then made a fast decision "why not"

We resumed kissing and he started kneading my chest gently.

Unusual...too gentle.

At first I felt nothing but some ticklish sensation but gradually, a weird feeling started to appear especially when Ryu started to use his fingers to trace circles on the areolas.

It seems he was avoiding the nipples on purpose.

My nipples were already hard and started feeling itchy.

I raised my arm to push his arm and he got the hint and pulled away leaving my mouth alone .

I was panting lightly but I asked him once my breath returned "aren't you going to touch them?". I pushed my chest into his hands.

He froze " weren't you so against it awhile ago complaining About swimming class and shit"

"Did I? What are you talking about, I'm sick so I'm not going to attend the swimming class" I replied calmly.

What a joke, my whole chest has red palm marks, anyone with a brain will know what happened.

Although our relationship was an open secret that everyone knows. I see no need for them to know what we do in our privacy.

Ryueen suddenly leaned his head closer to my chest and blow on my left nipple before taking it in his mouth.

"mm...." a faint quiet sound escaped my mouth.

"Are you getting more sensitive" Ryu asked between sucking the left and right nipple.

Ryu was more gentle than last time so it was more pleasant to me since it was within my tolerance range, it also helped that the bites have decreased in number.

"I don't know…mmah…."

I watched as he finally pulled away from my nipples and started kissing his way down to my abdomen then my bellybutton then he pulled the shorts off with my underwear and threw them in one swift motion.

I would be an idiot if I don't know what he is planning to do now.

I grabbed him by the hair and forcefully pulled him up.

"No blowjob"

"Awww come on, why are you stopping me now"

" I'm not clean now"

I only showered once this morning before classes, after a day of sweating, I probably smell.

"you are a clean freak, just let me continue"

"No, do you know the amount of bacteria there now"

"I don't care, more flavor"

I sighed and tried to persuade him " another time"

After I showered thoroughly and made sure it's super clean.

"even if you don't allow me now, I will still do it the moment you fall asleep again. Or maybe are you not spending the night"

I kept his hair in a firm hold to make sure he doesn't sneakily does it.

"it's really unclean and it probably smells, let's do the same as last time".

"you only smell of shower gel. Why do you think I have been feeding you pineapples for the whole week a lot"

I kept my mouth shut at that.i know how stubborn he could be so I decided to give up.

"please don't throw up on me."

"don't worry, I have good control over my gag reflex."

I sighed and let go of the hair in my hand then opened my legs in an (M) like position to give Ryu space.

Unlike what I expected and seen on internet, Ryu didn't immediately touch my shaft but grabbed my balls and started massaging them gently.

My toes curled reflexively, I Wanted to move away but I held back.

He squeezed from time to time which honestly made me want to kick him away.

One stronger squeeze made me grab his hair and pull it.

"Ittai…..let go already."

I didn't even have time to complain before he complained about his hair.

"It hurts me more, why are you so focused on my balls"

I watched as he stroked his scalp before replying to me " it's so you don't become sore like last time. I read that massaging them will make it better if you are the type of person who doesn't touch himself a lot. It's like forcing a muscle that is not used everyday to work out suddenly without any stretches"

I nodded in understanding but….

"Haven't you been spending a lot of time massaging them"

I narrowed my eyes when I noticed how he broke eye contact briefly.

Ryu grabbed my shaft suddenly and started rubbing up and down slowly.

It didn't take a long time before I was fully hard, after which he lowered himself so his face was just above my penis.

I noticed how he sneakily smelled me, I felt my nack and ears get hot.

I couldn't deny the embarrassment when he smelled me.

He flicked his tongue over the tip and urethra.

"ummmm…"

My toes curled and uncurled.

He opened his mouth wide open and swallowed the entire tip in one go.

I wasn't given time to adjust to the new sensation before an overpowering sensation of suction enveloped my tip.

I gasped and my mouth started spelling weird noises uncontrollably.

My internal clock was disrupted so I didn't know how much time passed before the suction softened and I started breathing again.

My brain was buzzing and I had trouble focusing, my whole body relaxed completely but at least I was able to keep my eyes open this time.

The hand continued a slow stroking from up to down but the mouth was sucking very fast. This sort of contrast was driving me crazy.

My whole body flinched when his teeth grazed me slightly, I felt him chuckling so I grabbed his hair to pull him up but he resisted and I didn't want to be bitten so I stopped trying to pull him off me.

He started licking me then suddenly opened his mouth wide and took in at least half of it inside his mouth and started sucking again.

"ahhhhh...…"

I felt like I was falling fast. My muscles were contacting as I tried to hold back my release but he swiftly noticed and grabbed my twitching balls in his hand trying to make me give up resistance.

I don't know how long I was able to hold back but I lost control and ejaculated the moment he drove the tip of his tongue at my urethra.

"Ahhhhh...mmmm….ah ah ah..."

I was panting trying to gather my wits back but h had to kiss my tip after he pulled off and continued stroking me during my ejaculation and after it.

"no mor..e…..hurts...."

I was overstimulated and there was this burning sensation in genitals.

Fortunately, he stopped before I kicked him off me.

I was completely relaxed with pleasant sensation all over me until I noticed Ryu getting up and getting closer to my face with a wide grin, his lips had some white drops over it.

He swallowed…..

I was mildly disgusted at that realization but since it's not harmful I didn't say anything even though I kicked him away from me because there is no way I'm letting him kiss me unless he washed his mouth 7 times minimum.

He was holding his stomach where I kicked him with a grimace but looked at me when I grabbed his arms.

I flipped our position so ryuuen was on his back and I was on top.

"my turn".

He grinned at me and put both arms under his head.

I stripped him of his cloths in less than a minute and then I looked at him. Ryu was also pale like me, it was a normal body I guess.

I started by sucking several places on his neck to find where his erogenous zones are. I found one under his ear and another above his clavicle.

I noted these places for the future then grabbed his chest and repeated what he did to me, from sucking to licking to pinching.

I noted that he reacted but he seems to not feel it as much as me.

I accidentally scrapped his nipple with my nail which showed the most reaction today.

I tilted my head then asked "Do you enjoy pain?".

I noticed that ryuuen's ears turned completely red when I asked about my observation.

He look away from me not answering, the atmosphere was turning awkward so I resumed what I was doing.

I grabbed his penis and started stroking slowly at first then started adding things he did to me before from twisting my wrist when I reached the top to touching the glans all over with my fingers.....etc.

I felt a mischievous streak and I pulled my hand away when he seemed close then scratched at his nipple softly.

Ryuuen was vocal in bed like me and he wasn't ashamed of it.

So I wasn't surprised when cursed at me after I did that.

"you little bastard, just wait for next time, I will edge you until you cry." I ignored him but I resumed stroking him until he grabbed my arm tightly and ejaculated .

Like he did to me, I didn't stop stroking and he seemed to enjoy it a lot for a while. I observed him and pulled away at the first hint of discomfort.

I watched him as he panted with glassy eyes and a red face. Something about watching him on this state made me a bit hungry for something and I felt a twitch in my penis but I pulled away from him and looked at the time to find it 2:00am so I decided to shower.

However before going, I gave him a peck on the cheek then went for a swift shower then came out naked after drying myself, he went to the bathroom to shower while I changed the sheets to new ones so we can sleep comfortably.

Like me, he didn't bother to wear anything and he looked sleepy too.

Both of us were yawning so we didn't bother with useless talk and just slept directly.