Chapter 32: No Road Back
The sun didn't rise, not exactly. It unveiled itself — slow and gray — through the mist that still clung to the tree line like breath that had nowhere else to go. The snow no longer fell, but its memory lingered in every footprint, every sagging roof, every quiet stare.
Vince sat alone, near the edge of the trench where new paths would be dug. His breath no longer came in fogged clouds — the air had softened just enough to suggest a change. But not comfort.
His fingers played across a smooth piece of bark, carving lines that only he could read. Not words. Not yet. Just shapes. Arrows. Divisions. People.
He wasn't thinking of the village.
He was remembering Naples.
Not the Naples of poverty and hunger — but the Naples of structure. Of quiet fear. Of absolute order carved from chaos.
The Moretti family had not survived on loyalty alone. Loyalty wavered. Fear faded. Love soured.
But systems endured.
At the height of its strength, the Moretti famiglia operated like a living body — every man a cell, every unit a muscle. The Capofamiglia, the boss, sat at the head. Beneath him, the Consigliere, trusted advisor and whisperer in the dark. The Caporegime, or captains, each controlled a slice of the city — businesses, protection, order. Under them, the Soldati, the foot soldiers. And at the base, the Associates — eyes, ears, hands. Disposable, but essential.
Every role clear. Every punishment measured. Every reward earned.
He didn't miss it.
But he respected it.
That machinery had kept hundreds fed, clothed, untouchable — for a time.
And now, as the village emerged from winter's teeth, Vince saw the same need forming here — not in blood or crime, but in survival.
Too long, they had been wind-scattered. Everyone did everything. Or nothing. There was no rhythm. No expectation.
And no safety in that.
He stared out over the huts, smoke rising lazy and pale from patched holes in the roofs.
Here, they needed roles.
Not rigid. Not cruel. Just clear.
Someone to lead food gathering. Another to oversee building. One to manage storage, trade, tools. Someone to handle records — even if the records were knots on rope or marks on stone.
Structure wasn't power.
It was protection.
It was trust made visible.
He had learned that the hard way — in rooms with blood on the floor and money on the table. In the way men turned on each other when nothing was defined. When honor was loose, and hunger was louder than memory.
A shout rose faintly in the distance — two children chasing one another around a fire pit. Their laughter was thin, tired, but real.
He closed his eyes, just for a breath.
They would never know Naples.
Good.
But they'd know order.
And through it — safety.
Vince walked the path between the trenches slowly, his boots pressing through softened snow, mud rising in tired pools. A shallow wind stirred what remained of winter — the brittle scent of bark, old ash, melted iron. He moved with purpose. Or tried to.
Ahead, the framework of a new waste channel angled toward the southern slope. He'd shown Eldan where to dig, measured the grade with sticks and lines scratched in frost. It would drain better, carry runoff beyond the huts. He knew how to build it.
He just didn't know why it mattered anymore.
He stopped near the half-dug trench and stared down at the earth — wet, heavy, dark.
It wasn't Naples.
It wasn't even close.
There were no soldiers here. No lieutenants. No names that made knives lower. No codes whispered across city blocks. No Elena laughing in the morning light. No Lucia pressing her lips to his temple after another near-miss. No family to protect. No future to pass it to.
So why was he doing this?
Why was he shaping this place like the bones of a kingdom?
His hand gripped the shovel too tight. The wood didn't answer.
Behind him, voices rose — Eldan and Rhosyn arguing gently in the shared tongue over timber reserves. He barely heard them.
He had nothing left to prove. No reputation to reclaim.
He had died already. Twice, if counting truth.
And still — he planned.
Still — he thought in diagrams and divisions, in roles and structure.
He crouched and dragged a finger through the mud wall, tracing a line, then two offshoots. Like branches. Like chains of command. Like the same cursed old blueprints his uncle used to sketch on napkins and butcher paper and the backs of restaurant menus.
But this wasn't that world.
These people weren't soldiers. They were quiet, wounded, weatherworn. Not killers. Not criminals.
And he wasn't the same man.
He leaned back, breathing deep, snow melting against the nape of his neck. The air carried the scent of wet wood, thawing pine, and somewhere — smoke.
"I'm not trying to lead," he whispered.
But even he didn't believe it.
He pressed both palms against his face and let the silence seep into him.
There was no answer.
Only the truth that he kept walking, kept building, kept trying to lead—
Even when there was no one left to follow.
The snow had begun to loosen its grip. Wet patches bled through white, and the air no longer bit quite so deep. Vince sat on the same rise where he often watched the treeline, the wind combing over the grass like fingers trying to remember its shape. His legs were pulled close. His hands still.
He didn't speak.
He thought.
For days now, structure had filled his head — how a village could survive, not just another winter, but all that came after. Sanitation. Storage. Defensible layout. Roles. Order. Leadership.
But today, the thoughts snagged. Each time he tried to push forward, something pulled him back.
Why?
Why keep trying?
This wasn't Naples. There were no familiar streets. No Moretti family. No turf to hold. No enemies to keep in check. There was no Lucia to protect. No Elena to raise. No one who truly knew him — not who he was, not who he'd been.
The villagers were kind. Capable, some of them. But they weren't soldiers. Weren't killers. They didn't follow because of reputation. They followed because of need — and because he moved when others still hesitated.
But what was he trying to build?
Why?
A gust of wind scattered the edge of his thoughts.
Maybe he was just filling the silence. Filling the ache.
Maybe purpose was easier than grief.
He didn't have the answer. Not yet.
He sighed through his nose, rubbed his thumb across the scar at his palm.
Even if he could go back—somehow, against all laws of reason—there was nothing left.
Elena was gone.
Lucia, too.
The Moretti name buried beneath betrayal and cement.
There was no home left to return to.
This was the place. These were the days. This was the breath still inside him.
So, he would live it.
Not for a cause.
Just because it was still his to live.
A voice called, muffled by wind: "Veshan!"
He turned. Eldan stood by the path, waving him down toward the central shelter.
Vince blinked once. Then pushed himself up, slowly. The air still held cold, but it no longer claimed him.
He walked down the hill. Toward the fire. Toward the food. Toward whatever came next.