Chapter 9: Chapter 9
Andi didn't open the safety deposit box right away.
At first, she thought it was just another "business thing" from Lolo—maybe documents, old property titles, things she didn't really care about. But something about the way he handed her that key—gentle, almost regretful—made her stomach twist.
So, on a Tuesday afternoon, while her siblings were at school and the house was too quiet to think, she took the key, went to the bank, and opened the box.
What she found wasn't legal papers.
It was a small leather journal. Three Polaroids. And an envelope addressed to:
"Andrea. For when you're old enough to understand why I left."
—Mama
She read the letter sitting on a wooden bench outside the bank, tears sliding down her cheeks so silently she didn't even realize she was crying—until her vision blurred.
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Andrea,
If you're reading this, I'm probably gone. And I hate that. I hate not being able to see you grow into the beautiful woman I know you're becoming.
But I also know that if you're holding this letter, you've already survived so much.
I didn't run away because I hated my father. I ran because I couldn't breathe in that house. I wanted love that didn't come with conditions. Iwanted a life where I didn't have to beg to be seen.
And then I met your Papa.
Andi, he was messy. Loud. He stained every white couch we ever owned. But he loved us with a kind of joy that made everything else feel small.
You, Bella, and Gesly were the best things I ever did.
If one day, Lolo Dela Vuega gives you this letter, it means he's trying—even if he's terrible at showing it. He's proud. But deep down, he always loved me. He just didn't know how to say it until it was too late.
Be better than us. Be louder in your love.
And never let anyone tell you that money is more important than warmth.
With all my love,
Mama
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Andi folded the letter gently, placed it back in the envelope like it was made of glass, and looked up at the sky, trying to remember how her mother used to smile.
She couldn't. Not clearly. And that broke her all over again.
She didn't want to go home yet. Didn't want Bella to see her like this. Gesly would ask too many questions. She didn't want to fall apart in front of them.
So she called the one person who made her feel like she could break—and still be whole.
Andi:
Alonzo… where are you?
Her voice cracked. That was all it took.
Alonzo:
Near campus. Why, what's wrong?
Andi:
Can we… can we see each other?
Alonzo:
Give me ten minutes. I'm coming.
Ten minutes later, he found her still sitting outside the bank, hugging her bag like it was her only anchor.
He didn't ask questions. Didn't say "what happened?" or "are you okay?"
He just sat beside her. Waited. Listened.
Until she finally whispered, "She left because she was suffocating. She didn't want to be someone else's legacy. She just wanted love." And then, with tears in her voice— "Why does it hurt like I lost her all over again today?"
Alonzo didn't say anything clever. Didn't try to fix it.
He just wrapped his arms around her and held her tighter than any words ever could.
Andi cried into his shoulder like a little girl who had just been told a truth she never asked for.
And as the sun set behind them, casting long shadows on a bench outside a cold bank—
She felt warm.
Because maybe grief never really ends.
But sometimes, you find someone willing to sit with you in the storm.
- ; -
They sat there for a long time.
No music. No jokes. No fast food between them like usual. Just the faint hum of cars passing by, and the steady rhythm of Andi's breathing as it slowly calmed.
Her head stayed on Alonzo's shoulder, even when the tears had dried.
Even when the world began moving again.
"You okay now?" He finally asked, his voice soft, as if afraid he'd shatter her again.
Andi nodded, but didn't lift her head. "No. But I can breathe again."
That was enough.
Later that night, back home, Bella and Gesly were already asleep when she entered the house.
She walked into her room quietly, placed the envelope inside her drawer, and sat on her bed.
She didn't cry anymore.
Maybe she was just tired.
Instead, she took one of the Polaroids from her bag and held it up to the light.
Her mother was there—laughing. Mid-laugh, actually. Hair a little messy, in a sundress Andi swore she saw once in an old laundry box. And beside her, their Papa, holding her by the waist, equally blurry from moving too fast in joy.
They looked so alive. So unbothered by the world. So… free.
Andi smiled, just a little.
For the first time in a long time, she didn't feel the pressure to be perfect. Or strong. Or composed.
She just felt like a daughter.
The next morning, she woke up earlier than usual.
Cooked breakfast without rushing. Made Bella's hot chocolate with a little heart in the foam using the back of a spoon—"TikTok-style," Bella once said. Prepared Gesly's socks even though he never asked.
When they both came out to the dining table, they froze.
Bella blinked. "Ate, you seem… in a good mood?"
"Maybe she's high blood," Gesly muttered, sniffing the eggs suspiciously. "What's the occasion?"
"Nothing," Andi replied, sipping her coffee slowly. "Just felt like taking care of you today."
Bella lit up. "Wow! Can this be, like, your thing every day?"
Gesly squinted at her. "Did you buy something expensive? Are you hiding something? Do you have a boyfriend now that we're supposed to approve of—"
"Gesly," Andi said flatly. "Shut up and eat your tocino."
He grinned. "Copy."
But peace didn't mean she forgot.
She spent the week rereading the letter at night when the house was quiet. Sometimes she cried. Sometimes she didn't. Sometimes she stared at her reflection and wondered if her mother ever looked in the mirror and asked herself: Did I do the right thing?
Maybe they both had the same question now.
But somewhere in the grief, she found a strange kind of calm. Like knowing why finally gave her permission to stop carrying the weight in silence.
A few nights later, she was curled up in bed, her lamp casting a soft glow on the journal.
She hadn't opened it yet.
But tonight… she was ready.
Inside were pages of her mother's thoughts.
Memories. Fears. A few grocery lists written in a rush.
One page just said:
"He bought me taho today. The big kind. I cried. He laughed."
Another read:
"Andi just said her first full sentence. 'Mama happy here.' I didn't know my heart could break from joy."
That one made her cry again.
But it was quiet, this time.
Because they were just words on paper—
But they felt like arms around her.
When she closed the journal, she picked up her phone.
Andi:
Thank you for staying the other day.
Even if I was a mess.
Alonzo:
You weren't a mess.
You were a daughter grieving her mother.
And I'll sit with you in that pain anytime you need.
She stared at his message for a long while before replying:
Andi:
You're dangerous.
Alonzo:
Why?
Andi:
You make broken feel like home.
And maybe that was the scariest part of healing.
Not the pain.
But the possibility that even while you're still shattered, someone can see the beauty in your cracks—
And choose to stay anyway.