Will of chaos

"Adella..." (Kaan)

That simple word, that name carried something so heavy that he couldn't comprehend it, his face turned towards the hologram, but his Aura focused entirely on Adella's photo.

"She looks younger... the shape of her face... has changed..." (Kaan)

"What happened to her?" (Kaan)

"She underwent a Divine Rebirth, thus gaining power, Divinity, a new appearance and a new name." (me)

"But all of this was just a bonus for her, what she really wanted was to regain her sanity... she spent thousands of years insane as a creature of death and destruction, controlled only by my mother so she wouldn't become an uncontrolled monster." (me)

"..." (Kaan)

His Aura was buried inside his body, his mask hides his face and even his eyes, I can't see anything else about him, even his body was paralyzed in place.

"Nothing to say?" (me)

"Nothing that matters... not anymore..." (Kaan)

"Why don't you let me find out what matters and what doesn't to listen to." (me)

"(He was desperately trying to hide his emotions from me... but the more he tries to do so, the more he reveals his emotions in the desperation of his actions.)" (me)

"Tell me what happened." (me)

"You know, I had never heard of her, I found out her name on the worst day of my life, the only Goddess who reached out to me who was just a mortal at the time... I was so innocent..." (Kaan)

His hands trembled as he approached the hologram, I erased the images of the others on the wanted list and left only Adella.

"I was just an innocent nobleman, innocent to the point of stupidity, I didn't pay attention to what was happening around me, I was just another nobleman who went to work in the court of my empire because of his connections, because of my appearance and origin I was popular or so I thought... until the day I was sentenced to death." (Kaan)

"The same old story, I saw many having a similar fate to mine after I became a God, the greed of a few causes the suffering of many, corruption spreads where the eyes don't see and they need someone to take the blame periodically." (Kaan)

"I was so stupid, I trusted people who never did anything to deserve trust, I believed in things without proof and the moment I was arrested I fell into despair easily as if there was nothing to be done." (Kaan)

"In a single day my entire world shattered, the illusion of the perfect empire I imagined shattered, revealing the corrupt world beneath, all my friends pretended not to know me, my family turned away from me, the imperial court condemned me with evidence that was at best dubious, and the God I had worshipped faithfully since childhood did not answer my prayers even once." (Kaan)

"..." (me)

He may have been hiding his Aura and face, but his voice was choked with past emotions, he couldn't fake that, at one point I think he even forgot about me, his hand touching the hologram of Adella's face as he continued speaking.

"Overcome by regret and despair, I prayed to every God I knew the name of, and as time passed and I got closer to my sentence, I began to pray without naming names, hoping that I would be saved no matter which God it was." (Kaan)

"That's when I heard her voice for the first time, it was a calm voice that didn't try to comfort me, no... she urged me to get up... do you know what she said?" (Kaan)

"She said 'are you just going to let them use you?'... hahahaha she's not one to comfort people..." (Kaan)

"She didn't take me away from where I was either, what she did was give me an ability, blood control... using my Aura and Will to control blood... such a basic ability and yet it served me perfectly." (Kaan)

"I used my blood to create the keys to the prison, after that she didn't speak to me again, but I felt her gaze on me, sometimes I felt like she was guiding me to safety." (Kaan)

"I used the power she gave me to cleanse the empire without revealing myself, I proved my innocence and ended the corrupt, but I didn't do it for justice or for being right, I did it for revenge... the innocence I had was shattered in prison, then I left that empire full of hypocrites." (Kaan)

"I traveled looking for that Goddess, the only one who reached out to me, the only one who didn't try to use me, the one who didn't speak empty words in front of me... along the way I killed many people who did wrong and saved many people, but I never did it for justice, I just wanted fame to learn more about the Gods." (Kaan)

"She appeared to me a few times, telling me to stop looking for her, to warn me when I was in mortal danger and once in my dreams to play with me, it was the first time I heard her laugh, if I close my eyes I can still hear it..." (Kaan)

He clearly got lost in his memories, he was already talking more than he should, but I let him talk, the Adella he spoke of was much less violent than the one I know.

"I eventually found out about her, I found out after killing a group of blood cultists, how they used blood powers, I thought they might have a clue and since they were horrible people, I could kill them all and steal their things." (Kaan)

"That's when I discovered the infamous name of the Blood Goddess Selene, a Goddess described as the Incarnation of Evil." (Kaan)

"The entire book had only a brief description about the Goddess herself and nothing about her teachings, but there were tons of blood magic, as well as the sacrificial rituals to acquire blood magic... it left me in doubt about many things, but none of them were for the Goddess that mattered so much to me." (Kaan)

"After years of research I saw how infamous the name Selene was, how there were so many historical records about the Cultists who claimed to worship her, yet none of them spoke of a Saint or even someone with her blessing." (Kaan)

"It also spoke of 2 incidents where a colossal massacre was carried out to make the Goddess descend, in both cases those who performed these horrible deeds were killed by the Goddess." (Kaan)

"I was already known as a hero at that time, mainly for my constant hunt against those who misused the powers of blood. Putting together everything I discovered, there was no doubt, the Goddess' name was Selene... I talked to her every day, for years it was just me talking to myself, even so I continued and sometimes she would answer with few words..." (Kaan)

"That day I confronted her, she answered me for the first time clearly, she transmitted to me her real teachings as well as talked about how they were distorted over time... the hatred I felt that day was horrible, she had done nothing to deserve this, but still her name was tarnished for thousands of years." (Kaan)

When she reached this part, her Aura of pure despair got out of control and became a storm around her, anger was predominant, but it was possible to feel the endless sadness behind the anger.

"I couldn't leave it like this, but there was no way I could change something like that, there was too much historical evidence to refute it, so I tried my best until I became a Heroic God, then I met her, her beautiful face... I confessed myself, I had always loved her and never hid it, but only at that moment did I confess myself." (Kaan)

"I needed immortality and many people to change my mind about Selene, but I couldn't, I spent my days with her and was happy until they made their move." (Kaan)

The mask on his face cracked with the pressure of his Aura, his fury turned to hatred, his voice became venomous and full of malice.

"It was the Ascendants, they were the ones who started the defamation of Selene, not just her, but many other Gods, it was a tactic to weaken her powers, which worked for the other Gods, but it didn't work for the Blood Goddess!" (Kaan)

"If I hadn't focused solely on her, I could have found out sooner... but when they attacked it was too late... colossal monsters... Golems the size of planets... people being turned into enemies..." (Kaan)

"They even had people from our universe collaborating with them, they approached me too, our universe was beyond the point of salvation at that moment." (Kaan)

"They made me a proposal, join them or die along with the rest of the universe... I accepted... I needed to accept... Selene was filled with rage like I'd never seen before, she was prepared to die fighting... I couldn't watch that... I couldn't let that happen!!" (Kaan)

He turned his body back, hiding his face, whose mask broke and fell to the ground. He was filled with endless hatred, but this hatred was against himself.

"I know very well that she will never forgive me for what I did. No explanation or argument can explain what I did, but I would still do it all over again... I would do it all for her..." (Kaan)

"It was the traitors who approached you, wasn't it?" (me)

"Yes, they hate what they do. Some of us even tried to kill each other, some plan to kill each other after finishing off the Ascendants, some plan worse fates than that for themselves... few among us can still be considered innocent. We are as bad as the Ascendants." (Kaan)

"..." (me)

Sigh

I undo the threshold space as he manages to get a new mask to cover his face. The surroundings change as it breaks. The forest reveals itself once more and he throws something on the ground, distorting the space.

"I can force you to stay..." (me)

"I still can't... I can't see her... not now... I still have something to do..." (Kaan)

"She's waiting for you." (me)

"..." (Kaan)

"KKKAAAAANNNNN!!!" (Adella)

"See you soon..." (Kaan)

He disappeared and seconds later Adella appeared with her fist shaking, I stepped forward holding her arm and reinforcing the seal on her Divinity that was about to come off.

"(Maybe it really isn't the right time...)" (me)