You Are My Only Sunshine

“Young Mistress, my condolences.” Shang Shi muttered as he picked up the documents she had dropped.

“Did Hao Yansen say anything to you before he died?” Mo Yun asked, her voice hoarse but her eyes did not give away a hint of emotion.

“He said….to make amends with you and that he had let you down in this lifetime….”

“Did he say that?” Mo Yun gave a wan smile, before falling silent. She didn’t mutter even a word more as she quickly packed up her belongings and accompanied Shang Shi back to City B in Country Z to attend Hao Yansen’s funeral.

This was the first time since she left the country a year ago that she had seen Hao Yansen.

However, she would never have imagined that his cold and lifeless corpse would be the only thing that greeted her.

Hao Yansen’s was preserved in pristine condition and lying in a crystal coffin. With his handsome appearance and his eyelids closed, it seemed as though he had merely fallen into a deep slumber.

Laying her eyes on his body, Mo Yun did not shed a single tear, nor did she say a single word.

She silently held vigil beside his body for an entire week and on the last day of the wake, she stayed behind alone beside his body.

The sky was blindingly blue, and the pristine white clouds that dotted it formed a picturesque backdrop.

Mo Yun stood silently in front of his funeral plaque in deep black mourning attire, her face ashen white, more so even than the white daisy accessory that she wore.

In her hands, she was holding an envelope, something that she had received just that morning.

It was unopened, the contents a mystery to everyone, even herself.

But she already knew what the document inside would say, even without opening the envelope.

“It was you, wasn’t it?” Looking at the devilishly handsome face on the plaque, Mo Yun squeezed out the question in a hoarse, low rasp.

Her words were spoken in a coarse whisper and if one did not pay close attention, they would be easily be drowned out by the rustling of the wind.

“Deliberately acting as though you had a change of heart, you just wanted me to leave you, didn’t you?” Mo Yun continued asking in a raspy voice, but Hao Yansen would never be able to reply to her.

She did not need his confirmation.

“You were afraid that I would not accept it and tried to keep me in the dark, right? But I can still guess … because you were in my dreams. I saw your chest covered in blood and inside… there was nothing. I thought it was just a nightmare, but now I know that it wasn’t.” Mo Yun gave a smile that never reached her eyes, her facial expression the neutral and measured, without a hint of agitation.

“When I was holding vigil, I looked at your chest… there was a scar left behind. How can you lie in this cold coffin for an entire year before you are willing to see me? Why did you only let me know now? How can you be so selfish and do whatever you want?”

Barraging the man in the plaque with questions, Mo Yun slowly raised the unopened envelope in her hand, “If you don’t want to admit to it, it’s fine, I already did a DNA test. If what I’m saying is true, my body will definitely have your DNA. But I don’t need to look at it because your heart has already told me the answer….”

Feeling a sharp pain piercing her heart, Mo Yun’s face grew even more ashen.

“This past year, every day this heart has been suffering, making me long for you… so I should have guessed it long ago…I should have guessed it long ago…”

Ah, why is it that humans can only shed tears when they see the coffin!

But she had no more tears to shed.. In this lifetime, she had no tears left for anything.

“Hao Yansen, why would you go so far for me? This cheap life of mine is destined to end sooner or later! I won’t cry even if you did this for me! So you really lost out, giving your heart to me! Not only would I not have much longer to live, but I also would not shed a single tear for you, you really lost out this time…”

Mo Yun gave a cold smile, gingerly flipping through the document in her hands.

Looking at the results, her smile grew more and more strained.