Delusive Fate

#032

“Haah, uuh… Huh… Bae, Baek-woo…”

Slurp, chomp, slurp… I eagerly sucked on the smooth tongue of Gi Baek-woo, which had deeply entered my mouth, rubbing against the roof of my mouth. The wet and somewhat shallow sounds echoed through my entire body like a reverberation. My whole body tingled. I felt so happy that I could die right here. I was delighted. Gi Baek-woo was kissing me. Even though the scent of alcohol, aged in his mouth, vibrated as he began to suck on my tongue, what did that even matter?

Gi Baek-woo was indulging in my lips.

“Haah… Huh, Baek-woo, yeah…”

“Huuh… Is this how it’s usually done? Seductively… with that face?”

“It’s just been so long… I missed you, uhh.”

“So long…?”

I wanted to cry at the sight of Gi Baek-woo’s adorable face tilting in confusion. I couldn’t tell if the reason his small, pretty face was flushed was due to the alcohol or the intensity of our kiss. One thing was certain: my face was probably flushed as well.

“I… Baek-woo, you… that…”

I stammered, wanting to say something, but I didn’t know where to start, so I just buried my face in the shoulder of the Gi Baek-woo I had missed so much.

Why did you do that to me? Why were you indifferent to me when you can still kiss me like this? I waited for you every single day. I don’t want to see you being affectionate with anyone else. It makes me so sad that I want to die…

All the words bubbling up inside me ended in a low whimper. Just holding Gi Baek-woo tightly seemed to melt away all the loneliness I had felt until now. In Gi Baek-woo’s embrace, his shirt was soaked with the bitter scent of alcohol and the familiar scent of him. I inhaled it deeply, and the pain I had felt until now scattered like dust.

At that moment, Gi Baek-woo held me tightly with a strong grip.

“Ah…”

He wrapped around my back like a noose, pulling me into him as if he were trying to stuff me into his body. Before we reached this point, the familiar pressure of Gi Baek-woo hugging me, as if love was overflowing and unbearable, suddenly returned.

“Baek-woo…”

“…Are you crying?”

“Uhh, huh, it’s just that… I’m not trying to cry, uhh…”

Suddenly, I burst into tears. I pressed my face into Gi Baek-woo’s chest, trying my best not to cry. I didn’t want to make him uncomfortable by sobbing. But when I was held in this familiar embrace… when he hugged me in a way that overflowed with love…

It’s unfair. You made me cry, so you can’t say anything about it.

All the anxiety and tension I had felt crumbled like a sandcastle. I clung to Gi Baek-woo’s scent and the smell of alcohol on his shirt, crying loudly.

“I don’t want to, why, I can’t, I look ugly right now, uhh… just a little later… huh.”

Gi Baek-woo tried to pull me away from him. At that moment, I felt my nose running, and I didn’t want to show my face, so I resisted. My mouth was covered in saliva from the kiss earlier, and with tears and snot added, I was sure I looked terrible.

“Show me you’re crying…”

Gi Baek-woo coaxed me with a slurred voice from the alcohol. His large, warm hands were now cupping my cheeks, wiping away my tears. How long had it been since I heard Gi Baek-woo’s gentle voice? I was drawn in by his sweet and kind pronunciation, and I awkwardly lifted my head.

Our eyes met.

Gi Baek-woo’s lovely eyes. Once again, tears welled up in my eyes.

“What is this really?”

“Uhh, w-what, what, uhh, Baek-woo, uhh…”

With a dazed look, Gi Baek-woo wiped my eyes and gently caressed my damp cheeks, as if he were confirming whether I was real or not, whether I was alive or not. Then Gi Baek-woo slowly muttered to himself.

“I’m going crazy…”

Gi Baek-woo hugged me with all his strength. Tears burst forth again. The lower half of my body pressed against his was hot.

He was aroused. Gi Baek-woo was aroused by me.

***

Wait, let’s go inside.

Yeah.

Ah! Hurry inside, don’t do this here, uhh…!

Okay.

No, no, Baek-woo, ah…

Just a little.

But, uhh, no, it’s not okay, uhh, do as you please.

Okay… I silently smiled as I spoke. Gi Baek-woo kissed my earlobe, persistently nibbling on it, then slowly began to suck on my neck, moving downwards. “You can do as you please, do as you please, it’s all good…” His breath was shallow and panting, and Gi Baek-woo let out a small laugh. I felt the vibrations of his laughter near my collarbone. My head spun.

He’s laughing. Gi Baek-woo is laughing. He’s laughing while licking my skin. I was more excited by that small laugh than by the scent of Gi Baek-woo filling my chest through my nose and mouth. I felt a tingling sensation below my navel.

Not yet, not yet… just a little more…

My forehead was hot. My brain felt like it was melting, and all my thoughts were turning to mush. I wanted to allow Gi Baek-woo to enter me right away. I wanted to beg him to come in and pierce the deepest part of me with his magnificent self, to tear through the soft flesh that had been longing for him, without shame. I wanted to somehow get Gi Baek-woo inside me. I couldn’t stand it; I wanted to confirm in the most primal way that he was mine.

“Baek-woo, ah, you can suck more… it feels so good…”

But I also had a burning desire to feel Gi Baek-woo, who was clinging to me and not letting go, for as long as possible. I wanted to rush through this moment, yet I didn’t want it to end, so I bit my lip. I tightened my buttocks and twisted my legs together, enduring the heat. I held Gi Baek-woo’s head tightly and pressed his face against my body.

Just a little more, just a little more… Baek-woo, you can’t go yet. You have to stay excited with me for a long time, you have to lick me all day. Please…

As if reading my mind, Gi Baek-woo extended his smooth tongue and licked from the hollow of my collarbone all the way up to the already well-licked neck. The warmth of his tongue became sticky as it got closer to my chin. The tiny bumps on his tongue sent shivers down my spine. I felt parts of me hardening that had nothing to do with my neck. For example, my two nipples, or the area between my legs…

“Uhh…”

I rubbed the back of my head against the cold front door, wanting to cool down. At that moment, Gi Baek-woo eagerly swallowed my exposed throat as if he had been waiting for this. He made a sound like he was sucking on candy, “Chomp, chomp,” as he drew it in. His neat teeth gently nibbled on the thin skin surrounding my throat. The strange tickling sensation made the insides of my thighs tremble. Gi Baek-woo’s hands slithered into my shirt like a snake.

“Ah, huh.”

“Haah… you…”

“Baek-woo, ah, more, yeah.”

Gi Baek-woo’s large hands easily wrapped around my waist. He seemed satisfied with that, letting out a long exhale. His hot hands, gripping my waist tightly, moved slowly up and down, rubbing my skin. It was a dense movement, like shaping pottery on a wheel.

Huhh… As the heat rose, my senses became more sensitive, and I twisted my waist. Gi Baek-woo’s hands tightened around me as if to keep me still. The feeling of being roughly pressed in areas filled only with soft flesh was ecstasy.

If he wanted to, Gi Baek-woo could pierce through my skin right now, cut through my insides, and kill me. He could easily end a terrible and cruel demise, and someone like me could be crushed with just his fingertips.

So this isn’t just a prelude to a sexual act; it’s as if Gi Baek-woo is taking my life. That thought spread like a perverse pleasure, stabbing at my solar plexus. The sensation of being subordinate to Gi Baek-woo electrified my entire body. My arousal trembled inside my underwear.

Drip… From the throbbing tip, something sticky flowed out. The pre-cum had already soaked my underwear, and now it was dripping down the hard shaft. The slippery stickiness pooled in the space between my legs. Even the stimulation of wetting myself was thrilling. I squeezed my eyes shut.

“Uhh, ha, Baek-woo…”

I could come at any moment. But I desperately held back, fearing that if I went too far, Gi Baek-woo would find it trivial. Since it had been so long since we had done this, I wanted to satisfy him fully. I was already satisfied to the point of wanting to die just from kissing Gi Baek-woo, so I wanted him to be satisfied with me too. I didn’t want to drift apart again. I didn’t want him to go back to someone else…

Uhh, yeah, uhh, I bit my tongue and rubbed my tingling thighs together.

“You, what the hell…”

Gi Baek-woo’s thumbs had begun to circle around my navel. The sensual stimulation made my stomach churn. I was restless, wanting him to come in and poke at the ticklish spots, to hit them hard. Gi Baek-woo, feeling that small convulsion through my flat stomach, laughed as if he found it amusing. His warm breath seeped into the neck where he had buried his face.

“Uhh, huh!”

“Do you like it?”

“Bae, Baek-woo, ah! If you do that, uhh!”