The lycan queen

Recap;:-

I gazed for a while. She was not half bad looking from this view, very beautiful view. She slapped me into awareness and shouted at me. Me, Alpha Jordan, is being disrespected by a pack members.

My wolf says not to hurt her. I don't know why, but I am not in the mood to listen to him. I forced a shift on him and pounced on her.

Taking delight in one of the things I enjoy the most, only this time something made it not as satisfying as I wanted, and I have a feeling I'd regret not listening to that feeling.

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Crya's pov:-

The D day is finally here.

"Good morning Aurora." I greeted her sounding happy. 

"Good morning."

Happiness is subjective, some people find it in the littlest things which others need an explosion of emotion to prove they are experiencing happiness.

Let me make one thing clear, I don't like it here, but I've started to leave with the fact that everything has happened for a reason, at least the past 4 months since my rejection, have been good.

The blue sky had been replaced with a coat of dark clouds when I decided to take my bath, and outside the mansion the rain poured down aggressively. I had always liked the rain, there was something so comforting in hearing the sound of raindrops smatter against windows.

The low sound of footsteps hastily hitting the floor outside the bedroom made me avert my attention to whoever was about to burst through the door. When they got closer, I recognized them.

I was leaning my back against the bed frame when Jordan pushed the door open. He walked in without giving me a glance. He had an irritated frown on his face as he made his way towards me.

Aurora tried telling me something at the back of my head, but I couldn't just hear her. She was trying to tell me about a warning with a hint of worry. However, she had totally lost my attention when Jordan strode into my room like he owned the place, and I immediately moved from my position to sit on the bed on impulse.

The sting I felt against my cheeks was enough to make my head meet the floor, and it's repeated severely, it took a whole lot to restrain myself and Aurora from retaliating, before I heard his voice.

"Who the h**l do you think you are?"

I crouched down in pain, but he didn't stop, rather he increased his speed and used every part of him as a weapon to destroy my very existence.

It went on for what seemed like forever, but in reality it was just 20 minutes. I didn't see any need to fight back. Me fighting back might be a trigger for him to accuse me of what I didn't do and lock me up in the dungeon. Making my escape impossible, just this once, this will be the last time he gets that pleasure. Finally, he stopped only to spit on me and have a last kick before he left.

The room felt suffocating, the air thick with an invisible weight that pressed down on my chest. I sat rigidly in the chair, my fingers clutching the armrests as if they were the only thing keeping me tethered to reality. A dull throb pulsed behind my eyes, each heartbeat echoing like a drum in my ears, drowning out my thoughts.

A cold sweat broke out on my brow, and i could feel the tendrils of something dark creeping into my mind, coiling around my thoughts like a serpent. It whispered, taunting me with visions of despair and helplessness, each word a knife twisting deeper into my psyche. I fought to push it away, but the more i struggled, the tighter its grip became, squeezing my heart with a vice-like intensity.

My breath came in shallow gasps, each inhalation a battle against the suffocating dread that wrapped around me like a shroud. I could feel the walls of my mind closing in, a prison of my own making, where every flicker of defiance was met with a surge of pain that shot through me like electricity. It was a torment that had no physical source, yet it felt more real than any wound—an agony that gnawed at my soul, leaving her feeling raw and exposed.

Tears slipped down my cheeks, not from physical pain, but from the deep frustration of being trapped within my own mind, unable to break free from the invisible chains that bound me. I closed my eyes tightly, willing myself to concentrate on something—anything—that could pull me back from the brink, but the darkness was relentless, a storm that raged within her, threatening to consume her whole. After a long fight, the darkness finally won.

"Finally!, you're awake. I thought I would have to shout you up."

"What happened?" I asked. 

"You passed out." she replied. 

"What?" I asked.

"Yes," she replied. 

"For how long?" I asked again. 

"For about—- hmmmm—— 20–25 minutes, somewhere in between," She replied. 

"That information is good, but you know what I am really asking."

"You and I both know the answer to that too," she replied with a sigh.

"I thought you said he cannot remember who we are?"

"Yes he can't. I don't know what's going on. What a wonderful mate we have."

I wanted to keep on asking questions, but I know that no matter what, if Aurora doesn't know, then she doesn't know. I guess we will have to find out another day.

Most of the bruises I had on my body had mostly healed, thanks to Aurora. It's more like an ache than a bruise. I stood up, jiggling like a jellyfish before standing right after some seconds. Though then pain was shooting throughout my arms, and literally everywhere, triggering me to better appraise just how bad it really was. I still have to graduate. With that in mind, I go into the bathroom and take my bath. By the time I was out, the rain had already stopped.

A genuine smile crossed my lips when the sun graced me with its presence upon opening the pack front door. Walking to school will be worth it. 

For a 15 minutes walk, today it seems shorter. Everyone I passed was giving me the look. 'You know, the look people give you when you dress fine' - yeah that look. Because I got that look as well.

I mean why not, I am dressed in my best clothes today. I wasn't exactly in an attire that would make it easy to ignore my presence.

For today and today's purpose only , I've chosen my clothing carefully.

A sleeveless charcoal colored leather top that covered most of my chest, only leaving a thin strip of my stomach visible, studded with red stones on the shoulders, while my legs were encased in black leather pants with a golden howling wolf sewn into the right pocket space. I got the clothes and some more as a thank you from Charlie for wearing his masterpiece to perfection. The others weren't aware. Black knee-length boots and a tightly bound braid with not a single strand loose to even frame my face.

Of course, this was only half my look for today's appearance. I plan on making myself look more beautiful than I have in my entire life. To show that side of me that no one has seen, because that will become the new me.

In those twelve years, I've stayed with this pack, I was supposed to have a normal childhood. I was to have scrapes on my knees from playing outside. I was to celebrate my birthdays with friends and family as I grew older. I was to feel my mother's tenderness and my father's protectiveness. I was to taste different delicious foods from different countries. I was to have school teachers who assigned too much homework. I was to have friends who I complained to about the school work.

I was to have crushes which I would have regretted once I grew older. I was to experience my first heartbreak. I was to make mistakes and learn from them. And most of all, I was to be free.

Free from these walls that have been suffocating me more each day ever since I came here. Free from the chains which prevented me from moving too much.

Now, I know you're probably wondering how in the hell did I knew of these things when I'd never been let out to experience them.

The answer, of course, is called observing. Which I did every time I get an alone time to myself.

This pack has really done a number on me, but right now I am glad to be leaving today. 

After six hours of reading and writing, I was finally done with my exams. I checked the class clock to make sure everything would go as planned today, and yes, it certainly would. While walking to school today, I noticed a change in security. As if they are preventing something from happening.

I didn't stay too long to be noticed, just took notice of the changes and continued my walk to school, making a mental note of the changes to my plan.

Murmurs filled the school hallway as everyone talked about the upcoming emergency meeting that's being held tonight at the pack house, which also happens to be a must for all pack members including the omegas. I have a bad feeling about this meeting. The specifications given for the meeting also bothers me too.

Immediately I got to my room, I wasted no time in packing the few clothes I had and some valuables. The lock I have had with me since I can remember. I've tried several times to open it but to no avail. Some nice footwear and my savings that I saved over my time working, packed it all in a tie and hang cloth, to enable me to carry them, even if I change into my wolf. I contemplated writing a letter to anyone at this point, but I knew no one really cared about me in this pack.

I wore my second outfit of the day, an ash jogger with a plush pink crop top. I also packed my hair in a messy bun. I looked at the time again, and this time I noticed it was time for the meeting. I picked up my clothes and my belongings got ready to leave this hellhole. I turned around for the final time to look at one of the good things I had while staying in this pack, which was this room.

Gifts from Sarah were the only thing left behind. I don't trust her not to track me with them. Besides, I don't need anything to remind me of her. Every other thing was mine. No questions asked.

The amount of security stationed at the entrance of the forest is enough to question what was going on. This isn't the usual routine for them.

"I guess the only way to find out was going to this meeting" Aurora chipped in.

"I agree." I said, dropping my bag by a large tree for easy access and quick escape.

This was not the usual meeting, you see. While I am not always invited to most of the meetings being held here, I still do not need permission to sneak in and observe. The arrangement is different and Alpha Nolan's beta and gamma were present. You see, these two packs are known to not like each other but accommodate each other due to the king's orders. They don't just send their two best warriors to another pack for nothing.

The feeling of uneasiness grew as I took a step closer to the meeting grounds. Before Aurora could say her thoughts on what was going on, I was already on my way heading straight to the boarders. The warriors, of course, noticed me the moment I went into the forest, and started chasing me, leaving me with no time to shift.

Seeing that I am just a few minutes away from the border, and not knowing if I could make it. I begged Aurora for her strength. She wasted no time in helping, and together we said the words I'd always wanted to say.

"I Epiphany Cyra cut ties with crescent howl pack, choosing to be a rogue for as long as the moon goddess wishes".

The connection between me and crescent is finally broken. With that in mind, I took the first step to freedom; bye bye old connections.