The Walking Dead: reborn as Carl

"After I separated from More and the others, I was pounced on by a zombie and suffered a serious injury on the back of my head. I immediately lost consciousness and passed away..."

"Then what?"

Karl breathed a sigh of relief and continued, "Then I woke up and found myself in a strange place. There was a doctor there. Her last name was Stevens. She was really nice. Beth, don't get me wrong. I was like my mother…"

"Hmph, go on. I'm not that easily jealous."

"Yeah." Carl continued his story quickly. The fact that Beth's attention was attracted did not mean that his story was attractive, but that Beth still cared about him.

"I stayed there for a long time, and Dr. Stevens was the one who took care of me...

Afterwards, I was locked in a very dark little room, and I was not the only one in the room..."

Upon hearing this, Beth seemed to understand something and was about to explode. She sneered,

"And your Petunia? Oh, how touching. A friend in need is a friend indeed."

"No, Beth, Penny is special." Carl grabbed Beth's hand and looked at Beth.

"Damn it!" Beth broke away from Carl's hand again, "You said the same thing to me at the beginning."

"No, Beth, it's different, you're special to me, you're unique to me, and Penny, she's really special.

She is the daughter of the Governor. She was, she was imprisoned there before me, she…"

Carl wanted to say it, but it was difficult to say it. To say a fact that he knew but was unwilling to admit was to break his own insistence. It was difficult, but Carl had to say it.

"She what? What do you mean she was once the daughter of the Governor? If she was the daughter of the Governor, why was she imprisoned?"

"Because..." Carl said with some difficulty, "Because she is not human."

"Not human?" Beth was stunned, a little confused, "If it's not human, then what is it? No, Carl, didn't you say you fell in love with her? What do you want to say?"

"Do you remember what I said to Martinez at night? About taming?" Carl suddenly raised his head and looked at Beth, his eyes trembling a little, as if he was enduring something.

"Remember." Beth frowned immediately, "Karl, that's not good, even a little perverted, what you said."

"Yes, that's right, it's very perverted, and I also said that I have experienced that, yes, I really have experienced it, that's what the governor did to me.

She locked me in a dark room with her daughter, a zombie! She also asked me to comb her daughter's hair.

"Zombies? Carl, what are you talking about?" Beth was a little unbelievable.

Karl ignored him, stared, endured the headache, and continued:

"There, if you don't obey, you will be beaten. The governor hits you hard. Although he only hit me once, even just once, that time he kicked me in the body and I thought I was going to die.

I was kicked to death. I didn't want to die. I hadn't seen you yet. I couldn't die, Beth. During the darkest moment of my life, it was your name that gave me the motivation to survive.

I didn't die that time, but I was bedridden for a few weeks. I was really going crazy during that time. There was no difference between opening my eyes and closing them every day. It was still pitch black.

The screaming in my ears never seems to stop. Although I have a lot of time, my sleep quality is very poor. I know that if I continue like this, I will really go crazy. "

At this moment, the tears in Karl's eyes finally couldn't stop flowing out, flowing down his cheeks and across his neck.

Beth hugged Carl and sat on the ground. The two of them snuggled together and hugged Carl tightly.

Leaning against Beth's body, his tears wet Beth's pajamas at her shoulders, but Carl continued to speak.

"Beth, remember what I said? Humans are really fragile, both mentally and physically, but I can't go crazy, I'm afraid I'll forget you.

So I made up a lie for myself. I knew that the governor cared about his daughter very much. In fact, he was almost driven crazy by his daughter. No, by himself.

In order to avoid going crazy and to gain the Governor's trust, I fabricated false memories and forced myself to forget everything.

Every night or day, but it makes no difference, because whether it is night or day, it is always pitch black, terrifying darkness.

Perhaps it was this fear that broke through my mental defenses. I succeeded, I forgot everything and only remembered what I had made up for myself.

I am not very clear about everything that happened during that period, which allowed me to survive and gain the trust of the Governor, because it has become another memory.

Although I am still myself, I am no longer myself. If I don't wake up, I will really become that Carl as time goes by.

Beth, do you know how I woke up? It was because of you. It was a night when, as usual, even if I forgot everything, I would subconsciously say your name.

Regarding your name, it is no longer just a memory stored in my brain, it has formed muscle memory in my mouth, and it has even been deeply engraved in my soul.

When I said your name for the thousand and first time, I woke up and remembered everything, but I found something terrible.

The real memory, about you, about the prison, about everything else, and the fake memory, about the Governor, Penny, Woodbury, the two memories can't be combined.

At that time, I still had a chance to force the integration, but the Governor had not yet gained my complete trust, so I had to do so. It can even be said that my second personality was created by myself.

He took on everything on behalf of my main consciousness, otherwise I would really go crazy.

And now, there is nothing I can do about it, because he also has his own persistence, that is Penny.

I used you as a template and gave him this persistence in order to gain the Governor's full trust.

Beth, if I had a choice, I would never do this, but I had no choice at the time, and this was probably the best solution I could think of.

My personality has changed, I know, a lot, and it's all because of myself, the other self, who has been influencing me.

Even my headache was due to him, he didn't want me to hurt the Governor and Woodbury, but I had to, I convinced him.

But the only condition is Penny.

Although his feelings for Penny were just a lie, the actual emotions had already been injected into him. In addition, I intentionally guided him to restrain his other emotions and transfer them to Penny.

At this moment, he treats Penny just as much as I treat you.

Even worse, because there was only Penny, his world only consisted of Penny.

If it weren't for Penny, I couldn't imagine what the other me would be like.

Beth, I know this is not easy to accept, and it hurts me every time I see your tears, but I have to say it.

Beth, I can't lose you, just like I can't lose Penny.

I can't think of a better way, and I don't want to do this, but..."

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