Bound To The Shadow Alpha

Elyssa Raine

Alpha Kaelith didn't show up all day. Even after my little monologue in the morning, I still looked forward to seeing him during lunch but he didn't come home. And then I looked forward to seeing him during dinner but he didn't come either.

For some reason, that bothered me a lot and I tried to distract myself by helping with anything I could today and it worked for a while but now that I'm laying on my bed in the dark, I found my mind drifting.

I tossed and turned— something I've been doing for the past 2hours, trying to get some sleep but to no avail. I side eyed Mara who laid on the bed across me, small snore coming out of her slightly opened mouth. Wow, she's sure sleeping so well for someone who was scared and anxious all day.

She's probably praying for the Alpha to never return back to the house , contrary to me. Ughhh, I'm such an horrible friend.

I sat up on the bed, running a hand through my messy black hair. My throat felt patch probably from staying awake for a long time after dinner.

Can I go to the kitchen this late in the night? Agatha never mentioned anything about us not allowed in any part of the house. And she didn't mention anything about going to the kitchen at night...

What if I get caught?

Pfttt, I'm just going to get water so it should be alright...right? Plus the Alpha isn't home so nothing can go wrong.

With that I got off the bed a d slowly stepped out if the room in nothing but the night dress Mara had given me when I first got her. It's her old night wear — a gown that seems way too small and tight for me because of our height and weight difference but it'll have to do. No one will be awake, I'm sure of it.

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Well , guess how fast I ate my words

Moving around this late in the night made me feel like the spy Alpha Bastian suspects me to be. For a house this big, it feels eerily quiet and cold at night and I instantly regret not changing into a more thicker clothes before stepping outside .

Well, too late to go back now.

The kitchen was dark when I entered so I tried to find the switch, blindly. Damn, if I only I have a wolf... I'd be able to see even in the dark.

When my hand finally located the switch, I turned it on and immediately a small scream escaped my mouth.

Omg. My hand flew to cover my mouth " A-Alpha".

Alpha Kaelith stood opposite to me, leaning casually against the kitchen counter. He's wearing a grey sweatpant and a black singlet that show his deliciously. muscular arms. He looked like he was just coming back from a run with the way sweat glint on this skin.

I diverted my eyes quickly, realizing I was staring too much . " Uhmn, i- I came to get water". I didn't wait for his reply for hastily making my way to the refrigerator. My heart was beating so heavily that I was sure his ears would have picked on it. Goddess!! And the fact that i could feel his eyes on me alm through. How am I not choking on the water yet????

I turned back to him, to excuse myself before leaving but I didn't fail to notice how his eyes had darkened and how intently he was looking at me.

"Get me water for me too". His voice came out hoarse and a bit out of breath but I assumed that was from the running he did.

I turned my back to him so I didn't see or hear him come closer

"You shouldn't walk around in that nightwear."

His voice was low—closer than it should've been.

I didn't have time to turn before his hand slid up my thigh—slow, deliberate, and entirely uninvited but somehow not unwelcome.

My grip on the refrigerator tightened like it might ground me, like it might undo the heat racing under my skin.

"Alpha—"

My voice cracked on the single word.

He leaned in closer, breath brushing the shell of my ear.

"What are you doing to me, Elyssa?"

Hearing my name coming out of his lips made the air feel thicker than it is and I swear, I could feel tingles dancing around my whole body.

"Undo whatever you did to me". I heard no idea what he was talking about but the next word that cane out of his lips had pushing him off me— " Undo whatever you and Bastian put on me".

It felt like cold water had been poured on my head and immediately I pushed him off me— well, tried to but he didn't budge. He didn't give me a chance to try again though, as he shoved me away from me like I burn him.

It was unexpected and my body didn't react on time so I feel to the cold, hard floor. His eyes soften for a millisecond before the ly tightened back and he walked out of the kitchen, leaving me confused and hurt.

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I don't know how long I sat down there...on the cold floor. I don't even think I remember getting up and going back to my room .

I laid back on the bed, using the blanket the cover my whole body...that felt like thrash. I can't believe I let him do that to me... I can't believe i wanted his hands on me.

Stupid, worthless whore, stupid, stupid, stupid, worthless whore. I hit my head in the wall continuously, the mantra repeating in my head like a broken disk . Tears sting my eyes as my mind shift between the present and the past and I continue hearing Alpha Bastian's voice in my head, yelling " Stupid whore, stupid, worthless whore". While banging my head, continuously on the wall.