My Daily Life As A Hybrid Succubus

When I came to, it was already dark, and I was in an unfamiliar area. I got up from the ground, and checked myself, and as I feared I was covered with some blood which could only belong to one person.

An image of the boy's smile when he told me he was eleven flashed in my mind, and I couldn't handle anymore, I fell to my knees as I allowed myself to cry.

I cried for Zahra, for her husband, for her son and for myself. I managed to destroy a family in one night since being on my own, what does that say about me?

I looked at my bloodied hands, and wondered if this was the new me now, or from the very beginning was I like this? Was I a monster that craved the deaths of others? Was mom right in telling me both demons and humans weren't so much different and both parts equally desired destruction?

I don't want to believe in a world as dark as that, but how am I going to get past this having killed a child? No, why am I taking the responsibility of killing that boy? I wasn't the one who killed him.

I shouldn't be taking blame for something that wasn't in my hands. I nervously chuckled as I came to conclusion, it wasn't me who killed the boy, and there's still hope for me yet.

I heard the sound of a stream near by, so I collected myself and got up. I went straight towards the sound, as I blatantly ignored my inside voice that kept sing an off tune song about denial. After all, why would I listen to a song that didn't reflect anything about me?

I reached the river stream, and looked around using all my senses to see if there was anyone in the area, fortunately there wasn't. I stripped off my clothes and entered the the river.

The water brought a sort of detached coldness to my otherwise numb heart, which awoken my senses. At this point I had been operating on autopilot, but now I was awake.

And because I was awake, I noticed something I overlooked, in my mouth there was this sort of metallic taste like iron. I washed my hands clean of blood, not all of it, but enough.

After I was done I stuck a finger inside my mouth, and took it out. My finger was covered with saliva and... blood. My heart skipped a beat, as it hit me, my dark passenger had intentionally triggered a Demonic Evolution.

There are types of evolutions for all demon Folk, which are Process Evolution, Holy Evolution which Mom chose, Devil Evolution and lastly Demonic Evolution.

It doesn't matter what kind of Demon an individual is, this type of evolution are true for all kind. But Demon folk had long made a pact to only walk the Process Path and Holy Path, and ignore the other two, for a very good reason.

Why would it do this, doesn't it know the consequences of its actions? Does it want to get me killed? I exhaled a frustrated sigh, I always dreamed of one day surpassing Mom, and becoming a Holy Sovereign, now that dream has just been snatched away from me.

My dark passenger has quite literally forced me down the path of an Eternal Sovereign based on the kind of breed I am. Normally I wouldn't be this mad, but if I walk this path, I'll have to..

I took a deep breath, before immediately sinking myself underneath the river. I dulled my senses and thoughts, as to escape from reality for awhile.

Now that I was in a perpetual calm state, the sexual energy that I fed off Zahra flowed throughout my body to converge towards my heart and clashed with my demonic energy.

A burning sensation spread throughout my body, and I felt my heart constrict as if it was being squeezed tight.

Why? I asked myself.

Why is it that ever since I met Zahra, nothing has been going my way?

Why is it that everything I thought I was prepared for has been continually descending into disarray?

This wasn't how it was supposed to go, not in an unprepared state I'm in, but it's fine I'll have to adapt like I've always done. I ignored the pain like how Mom taught me, and focused on the process to merge the two opposing energies.

Before the first feed, us demon rely on the demon energy to live, but we can't yet control it, because we haven't yet planted a seed, this seed will blossom within the heart into a tree pattern that will spread throughout the body.

This tree is important, without it, going through with an evolution is practically suicide, considering the body won't be able to handle the baptism from raw demonic energy straight from hell.

But with the seed in place, the body will continue to strengthen, growing while being nurtured with sexual energy. Incidentally that's the reason why I need sexual energy to create a seed in the first place, it's a necessary component.

Demonic energy is a literal organ of a demon, which is the heart, that's why I said we need it to live. But we also need it to control and cast spells born from the abilities that are a part of our specific form/breed.

It doesn't matter which breed of a succubus a person belongs to, in the end we're all without identify right up until we awaken spells which carry distinct signatures for each individual.

And to awaken said spell, it all boils down to the creation of the seed. What I'm trying to say is that as a succubus, sexual energy and demonic energy are mutually exclusive because we need both to become something more.

Demons that aren't succubus, replace sexual energy for a different kind of energy distinct to their own species. As I was lost in thought I almost lost control of the two energies and most likely almost killed myself.

I put my entire focus to concentrate on creating the seed, as this is my only chance, the chance of a first seed.

I conjured a metal image of my entire spiritual body, and through it I manipulated all the excess demonic energy from my body and directed them all to my heart, so that my body was quite literally deprived off both demonic and sexual energy.

Due to the lack of demonic energy my body started to cool off, that meant the next point was most important. I used my last bit of strength to get out the water and dried myself while maintaining absolute concentration, after all a single mishap means my death.

I wore fresh clothes, and discarded the last ones in the river, after taking out my artifact. After I was done I grabbed my bag, and climbed on top of a tree, there I saw lights up in the distance, but I ignored them.

I crossed my legs on top of the branch, and went back to doing great work. Mom told me the next step is where many demons get it wrong, she said they think they should calm the chaotic energies individually, so that they harmoniously blend them seamlessly.

But in fact, she told me energies should chaotically blend, because demons are chaos life forms not order, and harmonising the energies was the same as castrating yourself. And as a demon you won't get far.

And so I decided to go with Mom's instructions instead. I intentionally instigated the opposing energies to forcefully clash, until they came to blend whilst still in their chaotic states. When I was done I wrapped the two combined energies with my spiritual energy, and compressed them into a small pebble, all the while I was slowly losing consciousness.

'The worst has come to pass, now all that's left is to sleep, and if I wake up tomorrow then I've succeeded, and if I don't, well... I'm sorry Mom for the disappoin..t..me..nt.'